我是個踏腳石

狠狠地被踩了又踩

when you lie too much
your whole life becomes a lie

breakeven

as much as i want to say that it's not affecting me
it is affecting me
and i feel like shit

i feel like giving up
when will u be able to realize how hard i'm trying?
i'm hurt tired and disappointed
what am i trying to achieve here?

am i trying too hard?

life is hard
too many things to consider about
too many unexpected

指望

指望太多
換回來的只是失望跟空虛感

ridiculous piece of fucking shit

listen

do you ever listen to what i'm saying?
always the same mistakes.

action

Always find something to do to feel better
Catch the positive
Think about it as a problem to be solved
Inspect the situation
Open yourself to the positive
Never get stuck in the negative muck

confidence

i want my confidence back

dangerous

what a dangerous world
what an evil world
how unfair it is

half year.

today is our half year
kind of shock of how fast time has passed~
希望接下來的難關也都可以過的了！！

Happy Anniversary :)

:D

HEHHEOEHOEHOEHEHOOHEHOEHOE

:D ALMOST THEREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
NO EATING AFTER 9~ whooooooooooot

愛

愛是否讓人視線變迷霧？
愛是不是要一個人懂得怎麼容忍, 怎麼接受另一半？
還是愛是否是個迷藥, 讓你懂得怎麼欺騙自己?

能夠讓你成長
還是讓你後退

it just takes time
i have faith in myself!!!

:OOO

:OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMGGGG
2 more 2 more
:) so shockkk

learn.

learn learn learn
but i'll never learn how to write an essay - - always a challenge to me aj;awfjlw;ef BLEHHHH

fragile

beware of handling
fragile item.

;

　太容易落淚..
真辛苦

sadness

真難過
不想身旁的人受傷

原則

我的原則就是
做什麼是就該有應有的後果

i don't know what you'd call this
justice?
but the world is lacking too much of equality and justice in my opinion.
it has become too disoriented
rules have been broken
but i have always been the one that likes to follow the rules
it gives me a sense of security
without the rules and guidelines
i'll be at lost.
and i hate that feeling

happiness.

as we are walking out of our apartment
he was walking a few steps ahead of me
as usual, he kept on walking and then he reached out his hand motioning for my hand
then i held on to his hand


such a simple move, but it's something that makes me happier than ever
a simple gesture that indicates one's love, one's need, and what one's used to
but I can't help but wonder, is simplicity good enough to make a relationship last?

as I have heard often, guys moved on because they want something more exciting, more fresh, or whatever you call it
then that leads to the problem of marriage and settling down.
Will a guy ever be willing to have a simple life?
after taking the Parenting class, learning about how high the divorce rates have increased, and how many people stayed single make me unease and confused about everything
to be honest, I'm not that confident in myself to be able to have a guy cling onto me because I don't think i'm that interesting
having divorce parents of my own makes it even harder to believe in marriage
seeing my friends getting hurt in relationships makes it also harder for me to believe in long lasting love

yes, love does exist, but can it last?
I can only pray that more guys have morals and sense of justice
because I want to be able to hold onto this hand.

lost.

等你失去後在慢慢的後悔吧

disappointment

i have never been so disappointed in my life.
you were once a friend that i've trusted
you were once a friend that i've been proud of
but now you are nothing
you are not even worthy in my world
who are you to hurt someone
who are you to think you can get away with it
i have lost faith in a lot of people in this world
but so far, you've beaten all the above
this even made me lost faith in the world
if someone I trusted this much did this.
what difference does it make to the others?
it's as easy to do it
and even if you did love someone
how can you still do that to that person?
what is love?
tell me.
what the fuck is love?
i am confused
why is the world so complicated nowadays
why can't it be in the old days where everything is simpler?
永遠的不夠
那你想要的是甚麼？

the worst part of it is
the half-assed attitude
how do u expect me to trust u

habit

死性不改.

care

i care too much

why do i care so much
i want to be worry-free all the time


turn off my brain

bowwww

omg so many girls with colored/pupil enlargement contacts

world.

this is a sad world.

how do i know if a person's trust-worthy?

trust.

trust trust trust
我不知道怎麼辨認誰可信了


失望.

speechless.

i don't really know what to think
this was not a pleasant surprise
this made me view the world in a very questionable way

who to trust
who to believe

how many people out there are worthy to trust
am i the only one that still has this logical sense of mind??
or let me rephrase that..
are there any guys out there that has some sort of morals?
can guys not settle down and love someone wholeheartedly?

i hope my boyfriend's one of the few good men out there
but for you... I am very. very. very. disappointed.

very.

me.

想太多是從很久以前我就有的毛病

感受到了愛
感受到了special
reminder: what's important is what's happening right at this moment.

whew..i need to improve on controlling my thoughts

monster

終於體會到男人的可怕
oh how naive i was before

proud.

i'm very proud of myself.

i thot i was doomed with a C in the class
after final it became a B-

Never loved "b's" so much in my life...
YAYYYYYY <3

graduation

oh wow.. been so busy with finals and didn't even notice that graduation is this week!
it's a time of celebration but also a time of sorrow
changes are inevitable, even with the best of friends, distance can alter things between people
so for now, even with the hope of not having to lose any of you,
I want to say thank you for those of you who have become a part of my life
everyone who's been in my life is a contributor to help me become who i am today
and i am grateful to have been blessed with such an opportunity to meet all different kinds of people
so that i can learn more about life and more about myself
for the ones that are graduating
i hope you find the real world not as harsh as it sounds
and i hope you will succeed in every way possible

I WILL MISS YOU GUYS<3







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girls vs boys pt 2

男人少根莖
女人想太多

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this is a kind of pain that i like
the others please go away
but this one. come back often k? ;)

girls vs boys

there are certain situations and feelings that you guys will never understand.
and this is one of them.

calm

靜不下來

怎麼辦？

fuck.

in no mood whatsoever

why is it so hard
it's always the things that i want the most that i can't get
what is for me then?
tell me
what the FUCK is for me

fuck
-----------------------------------

scratch all that hahhaha
patience's a virtue :)

rainbow.

我看到一道很美的彩虹 :)

my eyes.

the truth is
sometimes i'd rather not know the real truth
sometimes i just want to believe that everything is simple to resolve
after a certain time things could go back to normal
i don't really care what's going on in your mind
but for me
a little nod and a smile are all i need
those are the moments that made me think back of the good old days
think back about how much fun we once had
and also be glad that you were once an important factor in my life.

If it's you.

I always saw you smiling
I knew from the moment I saw you
If it’s you, If it’s you, if the person by my side
Is you, if it’s just the two of us together
Forever is possible~
Darling, I will smile only for you
Darling, again for your sake, I will shed tears for you
If I could only love one person my entire life,
Just one person, it would be you
I saw your sad expression
The tears I saw for the first time, pained me
If it was me, if it was me, by your side,
If it was me, if we were together~
We can be happy~
Darling, I will always stay by your side
Darling, I will live only for you
If I could only have only one love my entire life, just one,
That person would only be you
Like a tree with deep roots
When the wind blows
I will take the brunt of whatever comes to you
Be my magnificent flower
That blooms on my branch
Forever~
Darling, I will only love you
Darling, I will live only for you
If I could fall in love once, just once,
The person I would fall in love with would be you
Darling, I’ll love only once, just once,
And that person is you

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不管是開心的我
傷心的我
瘋狂的我
還是生氣的我
都會停住而回想
回想著你無數次的讓著我
讓著無理的我
不管當時心情是怎麼樣
都會覺得自己是幸福的

The Big Trail.

"Someday, somewhere, our trails will cross again"

greatest accomplishment

i'd say my greatest accomplishment in life is choosing the right people to know, choosing the right people to want to know more about
my greatest accomplishment is meeting some of the best people ever

thank you <3

042111

today is not my day

nuff said.

complications.

why is it so hard to have things your way, have things the way you want them to be
the more prepared i am, the more i screw up

i don't know what to do
so disappointed.

restraints.

有時候還真辛苦
only if i understand..

with all these restraints
am i still the true self?

義氣

我想要很講義氣的朋友
even though sometimes they might come off strong
and some might even call them bitchy
but sometimes it just feels good to know that someone will always back you up

Social Psychology

"It is said that if two people lock eyes for more than a few seconds, they will either make love or kill each other" (Kleinke, 1986)

haha..this is why i love Psychology

looks.

why do they mean so much.
to you, to me, to others.

i miss the confidence and the carelessness
so hard to get it back but so easy to lose
yet the real factor is so easy to gain but so hard to lose

privilege

if things like this keep on happening
i will be really disappointed


濫用別人的好心

hard.

growing up is so hard.
you realize so much more
details
future
past


it's damn hard.

past

sometimes the things you've lost seem better compared to those things that you have in hand right now
but remember, once you lose the things you have in hand right now they will have the same effect
so treasure the things, the people, everything you have around you right this moment.



想到失去的東西總是會心酸
especially when it's something important like friendships

gifts to myself.

i look around me
and i realize they were all gifts
gifts i've bought for myself at times that i needed to make myself feel better
made my own frame
bought myself a hello kitty
bought myself a teddy bear

how sad

寵.

有時候只想要多一點點
“如果他能夠那樣做就好了”

當然會期待
可是我想因該不會發生吧


獨立慣了
習慣什麼事情都自己做
偶爾也想要別人take over
偶爾也想要被寵

__.

it's just one of those days.
so hard to please everyone



8 to go.

style.

i am very happy.
i've made an improvement :)

determination

i will do it this time NO EXCEPTION.
10 more to go.
report back here everyday.

a different side of me

so we learn something new everyday
it might just be a random fact about the world
or it might just be about yourself

before i would explain to people about what kind of person i am like someone that knows herself really well
but the fact is, i don't really truly understand myself yet
ever since i got into this relationship, there are feelings that i can't seem to explain
i feel like i haven't seen him for a long time even though i jsut saw him the day before
i get super shy
i rely on him
i say words that i've never said to any guys before
i cry more
but i smile more too

the old me always say "i don't need to see my boyfriend everyday, probably once a week would be enough", but now i feel like time is running out and i kind of want to spend more time with him?
this is weird
but i think i might just get used to this other side of me :)

定義

有時候真的很讓人煩惱
感覺世上友太多虛假和捏造出來的謊言
到底怎麼樣才是純真的
到底怎麼樣才是讓人可相信的

朋友和愛情的定義又到底是甚麼

有太多的失望
缺少了太多的感激跟珍惜

tired.

這一切都是為了甚麼呢？
讀書讀得這副德性
爭取到的又是甚麼
為什麼自己這麼在意這麼單薄的字母
好累
沒有耐信
突然覺得很煩
到底要怎麼讀才是對的阿？？


please.. just let me get A's.. :*(

regrets.

the way to live is to not have any regrets in life.

enjoy life.

my new set of lifestyles have given me less time to type in blogs
i suppose it's a good thing? that i'm out there living instead of using computer all the time?
sometimes I still want to write down my feelings though, just to let it out instead of holding it in

the recent 8.9 earthquake in Japan has given me a reality call
how life is so fragile
how life can be so easily taken away

being the unfilial daughter, I haven't called my dad to check up on him for a while
hearing how he had almost lost faith in me made me felt really ashamed of myself
what if it wasn't Japan? what if it was Taiwan?
I quickly dialed the numbers to Taiwan after realizing how stupid I am
rather than hearing a long lecture about being a bad daughter he said to me "enjoy life"

I can't help but think about my life after those words
am I satisfied with it?
what are the things that I want to do before anything happens?

Life is so cruel at times.
I really do hope for the best for those victims and their families in Japan
and i definitely hope for the wellness of my family and friends to last forever

imperfection

please don't ever do that again.

scent.

right now there's this fainted smell in the air
not sure where it's coming from
my bag?
my hair?
my top?
regardless of where it's coming from
this scent has become something that's familiar to me
it's calming and soothing
heart warming and loving

it's a scent that i would like to keep around :)

number 1

現在想一想..好像真的沒得過甚麼第一名
永遠的不夠 永遠的差一點
對自己是有一點的那麼失望
還好有朋友的支持
看了真的很欣慰 很感動
趕快睡吧.

expectations.

期望好像不要太高還是比較好
less disappointments.

changes.

haha. i guess it's about time :)

*checks off

能耐

生活的祕訣就是在公平的分配好給每個不同種類的時間
給家人的時間
給朋友的時間
給情人的時間
給工作的時間
給課業的時間
還有給自己的空間

你可能說
沒事 那就找朋友出去玩吧
可是只要和人相處
我相信不管感情多麼的要好 一定都是要費工夫的
不管平常你是你真正的自己 還是戴上了面具
還是要給自己休息的時間
就算是情人,朋友,或家人 還是都會有一時不合的機會
只有自己能給自己最安穩的silence

躺在床上看天花板
自己愛逛哪家店就逛哪家店
走去下一堂課 輕鬆的聽著ＩＰＯＤ
買食物自己邊study邊在圖書館吃東西

真.
爽.

forward

有些時候人會想要讓時間倒流
有些人會想要停止時間

雖然有那麼一絲的想念
但我決定往前走 讓時間很正常的運作
以前的我是快樂的
但是現在的我也是快樂的

人生不就是這樣嗎？
經歷各種不同的遭遇跟故事而讓每個人的人生變得更有趣,更豐富
而我從你身上也學到了不少
現在的我理解了怎麼珍惜愛你的人 怎麼表達自己的感受


一絲的難過 一絲的不捨
但沒有什麼是時間治療不好的

加油！ to you me and everyone else~

路口

走不出的路口　一個人　一瞬間淹沒在人群中
寂寞的路口　一個人　一轉眼走進了回憶漩渦
在爭吵的時候也能從你　最輕柔的手進入夢中

problem

i definitely have trouble being intimate
and time will be the only solution
so

have patience.

weird.

of course it's weird
but i think this might just be the best solution
i wish you good luck on your side
and thanks for all the memories

life goes on and we all progress.

.

wait.

呵呵

疑？
怎麼會這樣


好像有點開心 哈哈:p


stupid.

感觸

恩
也不知道該講甚麼
聽音樂很容易產生很豐富的感情


完美並不美.

能量

有時候我真的不懂我自己是怎麼承受這一切
完全不想自己那樣做給別人的感覺是怎麼樣
我不吭聲不待表我沒有被影響到
很想在房間裡待一天
你 你 還有你 我都不想看到

joke

haha.
i guess the joke's on me

thinking of what will happen before even finding out if it's even possible or not



now i know it's not even possible.




bye.

澱粉

我:"澱粉真的是可怕的東西～太好吃了 可是又這麼肥“
媽：”你現在就在吃澱粉你知道嗎“
我：”我知道阿 所以我才說可怕阿“
媽：”澱粉會讓一個人很開心“
我：”甚麼？為什麼“
媽：”因為他的成份會讓你有滿足的感覺 心情會比較好“
我：”是喔“
媽：”對啊 你看看這世界上有幾個開心的瘦子“
我：”:OOOOO YOURE RIGHTTT" nomnomnommm

dead.

there's a lot I want to say to you
but i don't know how

there's a lot I want to show you
but i'm hesitant to do so

i want to feel this way
but things just kept on getting in my way

i just want to be happy and show my own happy personality
but i'm always dragged down and influenced by negative energies around me
why does it have to be like that?


我覺得我快崩潰了
i can't stop thinking about it.

blank space

There is this happiness i'm afraid to feel
There is this hope i'm afraid to rely on
and there is you i'm afraid to think about


i'm afraid to lose something that's never mine
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lately i've been pretty calm i guess
on top of all that stress, i am living my life pretty placidly
nothing too dramatic
but at times i worry about this type of me
is this a feeling of mature or hopelessness?


i'm pretty darn tired
physically and mentally.

i need help.

please.
just help us this once
i really need it this time.
just please..i'll do anything..