ten

it's October
a new month

lately i've been finding myself waking up to confusion
everything felt surreal
i don't feel like i'm actually living for some reason
maybe it's because of all the things i've stuffed myself with
all those never-ending tasks
all those 3 hr long lectures
all those lack of sleep
all those attitudes that i have to put up with
all those people i want to impress
all those people that bother me

i wake up
my mind is a blank,
a vast field of emptiness

i walk around
neither happy nor sad

i face you
get extremely angry

i face you
eased my temper

i go to sleep
with many things in my mind

then i wake up to a vast field of emptiness once again




i'm not really sure what's going on
it sure feels weird
since it's October
here are 10 things that i would like to achieve
1. have more chances to go back and visit my family
2. be more studious
3. have some quality time with my friends back at home, i sure misses them
4. be more sure of myself
5. start new relationships
6. host/plan/have some very successful TASA events
7. improve my singing
8. have fun at work
9. have more chances to go to clubs and raves!
10. be happier