move on

i guess it's time

i had the greatest dream last night
but when i woke up, it made me realize how impossible it is to be that way


i know it will be hard
but i think i will move on now

朋友friends

我好像真的是一個很傻的人
可是我想我比其他人容易感到快樂吧？

朋友真的有很多種
不管是每天混在一起的
旨在ＭＳＮ上聊天的
互相罵來罵去的
有時看不順眼的
偶爾想ＴＥＸＴ的
我都很珍惜,很喜歡


現在我能想到的有三種朋友
一種是有意氣的
一種是有理智的
一種是玩得很恰當的

有意氣的朋友
不管怎麼樣都挺你到底
一看到別人欺負你,跟你吵架
不管誰先的 一定幫你到底
雖然他沒讓你學到你做錯了甚麼
卻永遠讓你感到很溫暖,很被在乎的感覺

有理智的朋友
最是和跟他談心事了
他能給你最真誠的意見跟回答
雖然有時候你會感到空虛,不確定他到底在乎你多少
但是他讓你學得最多,讓你能夠學到自己的缺點而變成更好的人

玩得很恰當的朋友
想玩個痛快,二話不說就是打電話給他
一天下去,可能笑的合不籠嘴
雖然他可能不適合靜下來跟你聊心事
但是他可以讓你忘掉所有煩惱,而讓你感覺到很有幹勁的感覺

三種朋友我都有
現在想起身邊的朋友
每個都fall into one of the types or even more than just one
向上面所敘述的
每個都有缺點
但是我想到他們的時候
只有說不出的感激與熱愛
again 可能真的是因為我傻
但是我真的很幸福 ：）我每個人都很喜歡

irresistible

i don't know what's the matter with me
想怎麼停都停不了

看你這樣
我很難過

damn

damn..
life's good

when you got good friends :)
and good family <3
and good beats <3

勇敢的不是我

天空哭了 它哭什麼呢
我們甚至還有笑容
能牽著手 傷就不那麼痛

沒有路的森林 沒有人看好的你我
比孤單的人 要幸福了很多

就算黑暗 還看不見未來 會不會來
我仍相信 活著是為了去愛

大雨滂陀 我不要回頭
寧願在風中顫抖
勇敢的不是我
是因為你溫暖了我的手

不在乎還有多久 我不需要懂
有你陪我就足夠
永遠只有 流過眼淚的人才能擁有

我很喜歡 最冷的時候
你用自己保護著我
我能感覺 你心跳的溫柔

心甘情願的人 原來什麼都能承受
寧願曲折坎坷 也不要再寂寞

就算黑暗 還看不見未來 會不會來
我仍相信 活著是為了去愛

大雨滂陀 我不要回頭
寧願在風中顫抖
勇敢的不是我
是因為你溫暖了我的手

不在乎還有多久 我不需要懂
有你陪我就足夠
多麼難得 我們做著同樣的夢

就像在盛開之前花朵就已注定
這一生唯一的顏色
就像是你和我 就算吹著瘋狂的風
也不會動搖的執著

大雨滂陀 我不要回頭
寧願在風中顫抖
勇敢的不是我
是因為你溫暖了我的手

不在乎還有多久 我不需要懂
有你陪我就足夠
永遠只有 流過眼淚的人才能擁有

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sleepless nights + good music
a new kind of enjoyment :9

AHHHHHH

dedicated to YOU <3
HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO DARN CUTE??? OMFGGG HAHAHHAHAHAHA <3<3<3

單純

remember back in the days
when happiness is such an easy thing to grasp?
you get a candy,
you're happy

you get a pat on the head,
you;re happy

you get to sit next to the person you like,
you're happy

growing up, happiness suddenly became harder to find
people became harder to please
goals became harder to reach

i think people just take those little things in life for granted

today i'm happy
and not just because of one thing
but because of a lot of things

woke up in time for work today
got facebook notifications today
didn't have school today
didn't rain like crazy today
got discount for lunch today
learned how to work the register today * big big big happiness
had dinner ready when i got back today <3
looked at pictures and realized i have great friends today
talked about tasa today
thought about upcoming events today
ate yummy food today
talked to mommy on the phone today
finished chem hw today
talked to you today :)
got to know more co-workers today
made reservations today ( i used to be scared to make reservations)
talked in mandarin today
and MANY MANY MANY more


take a step back
and think about those little things
your life can be better

you just need to think more carefully and differently :)

insomniac

i guess this is what i hate about late nights
i think a lot
i want to talk a lot

we were talking about technology is a remedy and poison at the same time in class today
remedy as to humans' needs
poison as to hurting the social relations between humans

the more i think about it
the truer it is that good & bad exist for everything
even photographs
those are what i love the most
memories
yet when i look back
it brings up a faint feeling of remorse

there are so many things i want to do
but i don't have the right to do it anymore
and i hate myself for that

方向

我只想往前走
卻步自拔的一直回頭看



被在乎的感覺
是多麼的幸福
傻

傻傻傻

bleh

yeah

sometimes i just want to slap myself


only wants it when i can't get it
when will i learn my lesson

crushed

我真的不了解為什麼有這麼多人這麼現實

前一秒鐘說得是我愛你
後一秒鐘說得也是我愛你
不同的地方就是換了對象講

前一秒鐘說得是未來可以一起做不完的事
後一秒鐘說得是過去做錯的事情

前一秒鐘讓我認為你們是值得尊敬的人
後一秒鐘讓我一眼都不想在看你們

前一秒鐘我信任了你
後一秒鐘就發現了

我永遠不能再信任你




有些人為了想要得到自己想要的東西
完全不去想身旁人的感受
有些人 就是自私
而那些人
永遠感受不到為別人付出,為別人想或關心的感覺是多麼的好,多麼的爽快
我想這就是為什麼我現在再做這麼多事吧
我喜歡為別人付出
我喜歡逗別人開心
讓我現在好像忙到喘不過氣來
想要證明我不是像你們一樣
想要證明我比你們想像中的堅強很多
我現在很快樂
這種讓我感到單純無憂無慮的快樂
是你從來沒有成功做到的事情

ten

it's October
a new month

lately i've been finding myself waking up to confusion
everything felt surreal
i don't feel like i'm actually living for some reason
maybe it's because of all the things i've stuffed myself with
all those never-ending tasks
all those 3 hr long lectures
all those lack of sleep
all those attitudes that i have to put up with
all those people i want to impress
all those people that bother me

i wake up
my mind is a blank,
a vast field of emptiness

i walk around
neither happy nor sad

i face you
get extremely angry

i face you
eased my temper

i go to sleep
with many things in my mind

then i wake up to a vast field of emptiness once again




i'm not really sure what's going on
it sure feels weird
since it's October
here are 10 things that i would like to achieve
1. have more chances to go back and visit my family
2. be more studious
3. have some quality time with my friends back at home, i sure misses them
4. be more sure of myself
5. start new relationships
6. host/plan/have some very successful TASA events
7. improve my singing
8. have fun at work
9. have more chances to go to clubs and raves!
10. be happier