sorrow

for most of the time
what other people think affect me a lot
i act differently
i try to please people as much as i can
i try to make everyone feel as comfortable as possible
i want people to be friends
i want people to be able to find a sense of belonging like i felt with my friends


at times
i just don't care about what anybody thinks
i just want to go back home
and take care of my family
i don't understand why things just can't be "good" for more than a month
finally getting happier again with my sd life
and now there's this to worry about
to be honest
i'd rather have dramatic sd life if that's what it takes to not have to worry about my family