如果時間可以倒流

please take me to May 2010

複雜

怎麼會這麼複雜
我到底是誰阿？
so frustrated
my head's gonna explode

maturity

that's one of the key points

do you have it?

:)

Days like these are the reasons why i'm so willing to put in so much for TASA.
This is a type of happiness that's pure
a type of happiness that comes from the bottom of our hearts
these few days have been absolutely amazing :) i hope it goes on like this<3

here's an early Thanksgiving to you guys! treasure those around you! especially your family & friends <3<3

My Bestfriend

couldn't fall asleep because i knocked out right when i got back from the TASA Food Tasting Event
woke up around 2:30am and couldn't sleep since then
so Connie and I just randomly chatted for a while and suddenly she fell asleep
I was still awake and chatted with some people on MSN till around 5 am

I closed the lid for my mac and tried to fall asleep
during this process i imagined how tomorrow will be like
how i should act regarding a "particular" issue
when i was just about to fall asleep i hear Connie mumbling
I thought to myself " she's probably dreaming "
following that, she said "你最好是拉"
I thought to myself " damn, probably dreaming about having a conversation with Jack..this is so funny i'm gonna laugh at her tomorrow"
she continues to mumble a few phrases in Mandarin
then she bust out the most ridiculous phrase ever
"How is it a Turkey if the guy is wearing the jeans in the Turkey?"
i was like "wow what kind of friggin dream is she having? first time i hear her sleep talk and she.."
when i wasn't even done thinking to myself in my head, she says "Sylvia"
I froze.
I was hella scared. I thought she got taken over by a spirit or something
i replied "huh??"
connie: "why is it a turkey if the guy is wearing the jeans? it doesn't make sense"
me; "connie?"
connie: "yeah?"
me: "wait are you awake?"
connie: "what? wait i think so?"
I was confused out of my mind
so i turn on my lamp and flash it at her
i asked "were you talking to me??"
connie: "yeah!"
me: "weren't you asleep? i thought you were just sleep talking"
connie: "oh..wait..in my dream we were still having the conversation we were having before i fell asleep"
me: "so..you just randomly woke up and continued your conversation?"
connie: "haha..i guess..hahaha"
me: "you. are. weird."
connie: "haahahha wow you're still awake?"
me: "yeah i couldn't sleep so i'm just lying on my bed"
connie: " "
me: "connie?"
connie : light snores*

oh god how i wish i could fall asleep that easily
yes guys
this is my best friend
the ultimate Connie Chung

改變

很怕會跟之前的都一樣
所以這次要忍住

可是一定得這樣嗎？
一定都要玩這些遊戲嗎？
那道哪個關卡我才能夠甚麼都不管？


好.難.

running out of time

so many things to do yet so little time.
停下來喘一口氣.




ok continue with work.




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:) 有突破

:)

today was a good day :)
i hope this lasts

true

it's because of times like these
made me treasure the ones i got around me even more
the ones that are true, down to earth and caring
those are the type of close friends i have

接受

我們都接受 一定是彼此不夠成熟
在愛情裡分不了輕重
誠實得過了頭 不能退後也無法向前走
愛是一個自私的念頭 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感動 能記得多久


怎麼會這麼突然
我的feelings真的很莫名其妙

tears

是變堅強了嗎？
總覺得很幾沒哭了

有點不惜慣這樣的自己
這種時候我因該是會掉眼淚的
是想要掉眼淚
卻忍住了
這種陌生感 老實說
我有點怕

sorrow

for most of the time
what other people think affect me a lot
i act differently
i try to please people as much as i can
i try to make everyone feel as comfortable as possible
i want people to be friends
i want people to be able to find a sense of belonging like i felt with my friends


at times
i just don't care about what anybody thinks
i just want to go back home
and take care of my family
i don't understand why things just can't be "good" for more than a month
finally getting happier again with my sd life
and now there's this to worry about
to be honest
i'd rather have dramatic sd life if that's what it takes to not have to worry about my family

Falling in Love

I'm falling in love she said

To say that word feels like

I'm losing myself

Cause someone always has to give

Give in to get what should already be theirs

Its not like its a photograph

Something to frame and hang it up on the wall

Something that keeps taking on

More than it holds until its taken it all

Can love even in times uncertain

Be the thing that carries us through

Can love open a heart that's frozen

Even when there's nothing there for you.

Oh this is what it feels to be alive

Even though we stumble our way through

Oh, chance and then another one appears

Then again another comes to you.

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i don't really know how to feel about this
sad?
happy?
regret?

i think i basically just blanked out
nothing was really on my mind
but that emptiness
is pretty darn scary
hopefully my time comes soon

忍

i hope this is only temporary
忍一忍吧