some people are just shady as hell i try to be the bigger person every time i face those actions but whenever i think back my head just wants to explode i don't know what else to do i don't know what more to do i try to let it fly over my head but somehow it always boomerang back and i just don't. fucking. know. why. the. fuck. you. would. do. such. thing. your insecurity needs to be kept to yourself stop fucking taking it out on me stop fucking trying to make me feel bad i have did more than what i was suppose to do spoiled brat who doesn't know how to appreciate karma will get back to you i sure hope it does
sorry for the vulgarity i just can't take it anymore have to let it out somehow
yet again another sleepless night i don't know why i just can't fall asleep when i want to i was so bored that i read through a whole txt conversation i had with this person
i guess i do miss a lot of things.
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what do i have to do to gain your 認可 i want to get more shifts! ugh so unfair
I guess i've learned quite a few things from this incident the only regret i had is it takes something this tragic for me to realize so many things
the feeling of standing over someone is very...breath taking i didn't know what to say or feel but tears filled up the silence images of our times together and images of her in pain all flushed through my mind it's sad to know that everyone goes through these type of situations
this is why you just gotta do what you want to do because life IS short what is it that you want to do? what is it that you want to do that will let you have no regrets whatsoever after doing it? if it's what you want then go for it if it's what you don't want drop it
the last, and strongest, memory i had of her was one day when she was leaving our house for Canada she grabbed onto my arm with tears filled in her eyes and said "please take care of your mom" seeing loved ones getting old is painful seeing loved ones crying is even more painful i have never seen her cry before even when the doctor broke the news to her that she had cancer she did not drop a single tear this is how brave she is this is how thoughtful she is no matter how much pain she is in the first thing that she does is thanking everyone around her worrying if she's letting people down
comparing myself to her i am ashamed
i am definitely starting new, viewing life in a different perspective i want to do what i want to do and hold on to those that matters to me the most
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