Accomplishment

Today i cooked for my little family
in a sense i'm really excited
i actually didn't fail
but in a sense
i started to miss my mom alot
i'm already going into the 2nd year of college
my brother and my sister are graduating from college next year
it seems as if i were still in Taiwan being the clueless little girl who sniffs her blankie
all has changed but i am still the girl with the blankie
what does this static quality mean?
i've been living for almost 19 years now
yet the meaning of "life" still confuses me at times
once a friend asked me "when do you NOT think so much?"
does trouble come find its way to always resides in my head?
or do i always occupy myself with meaningless problems?


simple life

is that what i want?
is that even possible for me?

the one obvious good thing that's going on right now is definitely my photo class
sometimes i do wonder
am i majoring in vis art because i can't do anything else?
am i making myself "think" that i like to take pictures?
but questions solve
this is the funnest class i've ever taken
might be much work but guess what? i don't mind a bit
i find myself rushing myself to finish task from another class
or pushing back the other class' assignments to make time to take pictures
now that i know everything much clearer
i feel so much more confident
looking at my pictures
i am proud
i have finally found something to do that makes me happy
i have set foot on another step closer to the future
很有成就感

the ability to capture beauty and memories

damn
what a friggin great invention