sublime

Sublime.

The pleasurable experience in representation of that which would be painful in reality, leading to a realization of the limits of the human and of the powers of nature

no matter how good it seems in one's mind
when it comes to reality
something that is so easily created in one's mind vanishes right before one's eyes just before he/she even begins the process of pursuing


"always think twice"
as i'm typing this blog, music yet again has given me another advice


what exactly am i doing
what exactly do i want
what exactly am i thinking
what exactly is going on
what exactly am i even trying to say here?

choices

it is inevitable to have to make choices each day
life is basically about making choices
what you want to eat for breakfast
what you want to do for fun
how you want to look
what you want to do with your life and so on
since college has started
i find myself making awful lots of choices
it's probably because of the new independence
there are no parents there to help me decide anymore
there are just so many things to think about in life
at times i don't even know what i'm doing anymore
but i have to say
as of right now
i am pretty darn proud of myself
no matter how painful or how hurt one feels
there will be ONE day that all wounds will recover
and now, i have made a choice that is for the better
and i have faith in myself that i will overcome all these vexations some day

beauty

"how could you ever let her go?"

有時候還是覺得不可思議
真的會有人這麼喜歡一個人嗎？

omg

insomnia
killing me



LET ME REST for god sake



pic from HK.
missed this trip SO much

Simple Things

here you go
to those of you who asks "what does the :3 face look like in real life" haha


just heard this old song when my itunes shuffle was turned on

Just copped your girl a brand new Rolex
But you can never find the time to spend at home
Thinkin' it's gon' keep her happy
When time is all she wanted all along

[Chorus]
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it

So you think that you know what's important
Steady chasin' your fame and your fortune
But you don't know
You're chasing a dime losin' a treasure
Those dollars don't make sense to me at all

catch up

are always fun :)

i missed you guys! <3

insomnia

can't sleep

and yes this is me without make up

i guess i'm at a point in life where i don't really care as much anymore

i like to dress up and look nice everyday

but at the end of the day this is the real me

been watching episodes of hells kitchen

things i want to do this summer

-get a job

-learn how to cook

-eat healthier

-plan

simpler

next year

i think i want a simpler life

stay home more

study more

it's better that way

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i want to move to a new place

decorate and furnish the whole place

from scratch

restarting everything

getting a fresh start

why

為什麼總是要過這種生活

hah

is it worth it?

War

i will definitely miss this.

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is it really

alls fair in love and war?

i hope it's that way

but it's too good to be true

there are always little scratches and loopholes

are you suppose to be selfish? or considerate?

at times i think i don't treat myself fairly

i put others before me way too often

and at the end i blame myself for being so weak and useless

always scared to stand up for myself

but even so

i am still getting the same response as if i stand up for myself

why bother then?

i don't get it

i just don't

flaws

go ahead and find all the ways to disappoint me

i should make more time for myself
rather than for you


i need to learn how to be more independent
at the end you will always be alone




attempt 2.
fail.

self

this has come to a point where i am starting to doubt myself

am i really not worthy enough?

is this the best i can do?

why am i doing this..

有時候

真的很想賞自己兩巴掌

Please

Please
at least one
let me learn
let me take a step further
just one...

Hello...Kiddi

as i stood in front of the display a smile came upon my face
"wooo yayy new arrivals" flashed through my head as my eyes wonder around
as i was about to reach forward and pick up this cute bag
"who the heck buys hello kitty stuff at the bookstore"
as i heard these words of the passing students
i swooshed my arm in a bowling action
and ran my fingers through my hair and picked up my footsteps once again
darn it.
i really wanted that bag
damn it.