mixed up

i havent really been using this but i really want to blog right now so here i am


today was a very confusing day for me
one of those days where you just stare into the skies and wonder "why?"


sometimes i wish i could be different
i don't want to notice little things
i don't want to be so considerate
i don't want to be so logical
i don't want to think my head off




i want to be selfish for once



but at the end i would always transform back to the old sylvia
the one that just doesn't want any problems
the one that just steps back






it just

sucks