逃避

有些事情就是想怎麼解決想怎麼避開都行不通

sky

Starting point. departed


What color is the sky?

a: blue

think again



today when i was jogging in my community
at the top of the mountain
i took a look at the sky
i saw blue. red. orange. pink. purple. yellow. even green



Why do you cry?
a: sadness



think again

今天決定要在社區裡跑步
到4/5的時候往上看 看到山頭
想到自己剛剛有跑到那邊
就突然有了種莫名奇妙得overwhelming feeling
眼淚就開始落下
是因為我征服了這一切嗎?
不是的話 那又是為什麼?



Destination. reached

relax

taken by my brother. First time visiting UCSD March 09

wow..time has passed by so quickly
can't believe it has already been a year since i first visited SD

today was a nice day
shopping with Diana
reminded me of the first time we shopped together
girls day out is always fun
got some massage
then end the night with mah jong
just simple chilling. laughters.
i am satisfied :)
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she turned, then opened Mr. A's car door
she decided to make a change

New York Summer 2009

freedom

@New York's Metropolitan Museum with Degas' painting

done with finals!
took the last final with a hugeeeeee headache...hope i did fine
now that i have the time, i started to organize my pictures
taking a break from organizing, i started looking back at pictures i took in Europe and New York last summer
there are so many pictures i can edit with so excited
before i never really took the time to adjust pictures i took
but now i can go back and do it :)
haha..i actually have my bangs up in this picture
so funny
the things one can do on a vacation
care so much less than in normal life

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while Mr. A was waiting for her respond
the sound of the bus appeared suddenly
the girl turned and saw the bus approaching
a crowd of people ran towards the bus stop
they all seemed so eager to get the bus' attention
push. run. wave. yell.
all for the attention of the bus driver
watching from the side, the girl felt as if she was at the zoo
and she thought to herself
"do i really want to be one of them?"

belong

taken on february 14 2009.

where does love fit in?

collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

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the bus seems to have stopped working
she's been sitting on the bench waiting, waiting, and waiting
so she decided to walk
Mr. A showed up at times of need once again
he offered her a ride
should she accept it?



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平靜的夜晚
問題顯得更明顯
現實變得更清楚
思念變得更纏腦

我變得更混擾


而你.



又變得更迷人

flows

waking up early always gives me a refreshing feeling
seems like you're one of the few that's awake
the period of time that belongs to yourself
don't have to talk don't have to act don't have to do anything
just you and yourself

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時間流逝
該學的都學到了嗎?
該珍惜的都顧慮到了嗎?
失望陷進了心靈的創傷
面具已變成了常態
而真相已迷失在中
注意到的是沒掌握的
忽略到的是自己擁有的
為每天的隨機設置而焦慮
今天的我會是怎麼樣
而今天的你是否會彌補我心中的那塊空曠呢?

must......be...awaekkkaeeeeeeeee

pulled an all nighter...
i am
a walking zombie...


but must stay awake...if i fall asleep i'll probably miss my class.....


i want to thank TINA BOOKER sosososoososososoosososoososooooooooooooooooooo MUCH <3
you are my savior
i'm so grateful to have such wonderful friends

changes

sometimes you just gotta make some changes in your life
it could be for your own good or maybe even for other people's goods
but changes in life are inevitable



for my own good
i am making a change in my life


i am going to climb the stairs instead of riding the elevator
that's right
you heard me
7 stories!

numb

i just
don't feel anything anymore

March 4th

STOP HATE
STOP RACISM

Privilege

I think it is important to know what is happening around the world right now
Do you know what's going on around the world right now?
Do you know what is happening right on your campus?
well as a UCSD student, the passed two weeks have been very critical and maybe even life changing
to be honest, i did not even know exactly what is going on
all i knew was there were "racial" problems toward African Americans and it never occurred to me that this might affect me
my point of view completely changed after attending a meeting tonight, organized by some professors and student orgs that create an opportunity to let people speak, let people talk about the problems and also allow them to ask questions about what has happened
at first i did not know what to expect
Jeff jokingly said, "maybe we'd have to go around in circle and introduce ourselves."
but i was relieved when i saw a bunch of people in the room
basically people talked about how asian americans should take this opportunity to speak out as well
we are taking the privilege of having so many of us here at ucsd for granted
imagine if you were in the position of those who got targeted
just because we are now at a more comfortable position it does not mean the racial problems are completely resolve
there are still other parts of the world where racism towards asian americans exist
what shock me was how i can completely relate to those who talked about their feelings
even those of the targeted ones
it hit me that i've actually been through the same problems before
i forgot about those late night sobs when i first came to America
it is bad enough that i did not understand anyone or had only a few friends
but on top of that, i happened to be targeted as a laughingstock
how could i ever forget the fear that i had to go to 5th period where i'd get bullied everyday?
how uncomfortable it is to feel unwelcome
put yourself in that position
what if there were only 1.2 % asians at ucsd
would you still feel the same way as you do right now?
would you even come here in the first place?
i believe most of the people are like me
when this meeting was first presented to me i thought to myself "i probably won't go, as long as i stay quiet i think i'll be fine"
but why be selfish?
do you feel that racism is okay now once you are not one of the victims?
treasure the privilege you have right now
racism is a global issue
don't you want to make the world a better place?
with the bad economy, global warming, and who knows what other problems are out there right now
wouldn't you feel better by contributing in things that will better the world?
wouldn't you want to make this world a better place for your own offspring?
think twice before you step away from the problem
pay attention to what is happening around you
because it might apply to you even though you are unaware of it

a while

hrm
its been a while
i kinda miss you

PLEASEEE

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEEE
PRETTYYY PLEASEEEE
LET ME GET MY CLASSES T_TTTTT
5pm please come.....