red bull gives you wings

thought i needed some energy to drive back to sd
so i got a bottle of redbull
i am so hyped up right now
the best i've felt this weekend
or even past week
HEHEHEHEHE
maybe i should drink red bull more often
even though its bad
but all i care is
i feeell gooooodddddd


i feel so good
i'm not even wearing any make up :)

吸一口氣

重新調整自己




向過去學習
活在當下
期待未來

What are you?

What are you
you once make them the happiest people alive
you once make them know what love is
you once let them have the power to forgive and forget
you once let them realize this is what life is about
you once let them think the word "forever" might come in use

now you make them one of the most miserable people alive
now you make them doubt what is love
now you let them outline each others flaws clearly
now you let them wonder what life is about
now you let them think the word "forever" is just bullcrap


people say "this is a love-hate situation"
you either love or hate
but in this case
aren't hate and love the same thing?
love ends up as hate
does hate ever end up as love?


call me useless
call me crybaby
but i just don't want to take sides
i don't know how to express my opinions
i don't know anything when it comes to this
i just want to escape this cruel reality
i just want to pretend everything is alright
i just want to be happy.

kcuf

如果你不能永遠be there for me
那一開始就不要給那個承諾
一堆假惺惺
他媽的

all i ask

all i ask for
is steadiness
a safe place to hide at when in need
whenever, whereever
i have never felt like this
無處可去
無人可信任


幹
他媽的



what is wrong with me..

nvm

nvm
today's a bad day afterall

tired of everything

i should just sleep through the whole day

Small World

hahhahhahahahaahahaha
omfg this world is WAYYYY too small
amazing...

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today started off badly
but after noises were cleared
things are starting to change
yess thank you

Changes

Today is going to be different...




cause i ate two bananas instead of one this morning :)

Love

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly" - Sam Keen

hahaha

wow finally

I love you

"Love" is such a powerful word, yet it is not at the same time
i can easily say to some "OMGG I LOVE YOUU!"
but i can also get so grossed out by even thinking of saying the phrase

today was an interesting day
a certain email was read
i have never seen you wrote a letter before
i didn't even know you're articulate in the first place..(kind of mean)
but after reading it and after the phone call today
i think i finally got over the uneasiness i get when i say those words
it appeared to me how wonderful you are
how much you want to bring happiness to those around you
how much you want the best for us
i guess this is where i got part of my personality
i'm not saying that i'm perfect
i'm definitely FAR FAR FARRR from being perfect
but i do know i want to make those around me happy
the more i can do for my friends
the more smiles and laughter i put on their face
the happier i get
i don't know, sometimes people say care for yourself first
but i just find it amazing when i am able to want to do so much for someone
i am able to have friends that are so wonderful that would allow me to think so much for them and of them
and this is all thanks to you
it's funny how the topic of "maturity" was brought up today
i realized how much i have changed
i have reached an age where it is my turn to take care of you
so here, let me lend you my hand and help you when you're in trouble
after all, you are one of the people i love the most




i love you daddy :)

WHEEEEEEE

GAHHHHH TODAY IS SUCH A GOOD DAYYYY
got ma phone
robert fixed my computer
omfg life is good <3
gonna be phone crazy these days :)

forced

damn i look alot skinnier in that pic...i think that was senior year?
ugh lame LALALALLAALLA
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things shouldn't be forced
it should happen naturally

race

it feels like i've been racing with time
moving at a faster pace
walking with faster footsteps
tasks following one another without the time to catch a breath
is this living life the fullest?
i'm sort of confused in all this madness
is this what i want?

set

not everyone needs to know.
not anymore..
沒有固定誰一定要知道

improvement

henry says:
ohhhhhhh
did someone already proofread this?
*Sylvia* mochababy<3 says:
nope
IS IT BETTER?

DUN DUN DUNN
henry says:
yeahhh
*Sylvia* mochababy<3 says:
OH YAYYY
henry says:
definitely better then the college essays

nicee




AHHHH this made my day!!
shout out to henry :) he's always there for me <3
also Tina who guided me throughout the process

but..
i still suck at writing
and i improved??
whoa...how bad was i!?

talk

i just realize
how much i talk about my problems
i guess it's healthy in a way
to let it out
but i can just go on and on and on and on ahahha
i noticed that whenever connie and i go back to LA or comes back to SD
time would pass by super fast
because i talk on and on
and then to tina on msn
i rant like crazy these days
also to dianne both in person and msn
thank you guys for helping me carry my burdens

but seriously...

why do i have so many problems in my life?....

breathe

truth hurts



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take a deep breath
and let it all out

reminder

do u think i like to be constantly reminded?

love

you make my day better
wait..i take that back... you make my WEEK better :)
whenever i come back
your love for me will still be the same
i don't have to worry about anything
you are always there for me
my dear Mocha<3


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at this point
i am on autopilot
i do not think beforehand or even plan during it
is this the right way to live?
all so surprising yet so predictable
hrm



interesting.

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yeah. end

paranoid

do people always have to be constantly renewed?
most can never stick with the same thing or the same routine
always searching for the new things to do
the word "new" is always affiliated the word "exciting"
as to "old" and "boring"
why is that?
why can't you see it as "old" and "valued"





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i no longer see your point. maybe i'm just being a bitch this week

bad week




而我以為永遠會當我避風港的你
卻變了
good things never last.

judgement

i'm so fucking sick of this
who said you could be the judge of everything?
每次就只會讓別人自信心變低
你自己又有多好?
what the fuck
that's it
this is the end of it
隨便你吧
不差你一個

The Prayer

desire

i want too many things




teach me how to care less
teach me how to not notice little things

i'm tired of feeling like this




maybe it's better to not know anything
and also not acknowledge the fact that you don't know anything

depend

sometimes you just can't count on anyone
maybe today was just an off day
suddenly i question everything
even my own actions
what is the point of giving
i feel even disgusted with myself for feeling like this
i want to be a better person everyday
i am a positive person
but i felt used
why be like this when you get nothing in return?
why spend so much time on trying so hard when people always let you down?





i just dont get it

giggle

hahahaa..hello there Mr. Obvious
can't helpe but giggle

haha

hahaa hrm i like this feeling :)



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it's good to hang out with old friends again
forgot how much fun i always have with you guys
Alex HAPPY 21st! :) HAHHAAH it was epic man
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freedom never felt so good

洗牌

洗
牌












洗
牌













洗
牌

昏頭了

__
我真的是大笨蛋
傻子




happiness never lasts











我喜歡昨天的我

keke

ok i know i should be studying
but i just wanted to say
i'm very happy today :)
bonded with so many people
eeee



ah it feels good to be busy
once again
thank you matt ayala :)

My Song and..

I made a song for you my friend
I made a song that I will sing for you
Filling my life with many beautiful lights
And a thousand melodies
You are my paradise

I made a song for you my dream
I made a song that I will sing for you my friend
Falling in love with every part of your life
Until the end of time
I love you more than my life
I wanna know you more
When you call me an angel
When you cross me look
Into my eyes

Even though my love for you
May fade away
I wanna give you more than words ever say
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true till the end of time
‘Cause I believe you’ll never forget and I won’t forget
The song in my heart

Every time when I was down
You always came around
And your love of life to my life
I am gonna sing forever
I am gonna sing forever

Close you eyes
I wanna give you more than words can ever say
‘Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true till the end of time
‘Cause I believe you’ll never forget
And I won’t forget the song in my heart

I wanna sing for you my friend
I wanna sing for you with all my heart
I wanna sing for you my dream
I wanna sing for you and…

FEBRUARY~~

woww it's already february~
been in college for more than 4 months now..so weird
i kind of want time to slow down a bit because i don't want some people to graduate :(
anyways lets not let that ruin my good mood today~
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i don't know why but today when i woke up i didn't feel like how i have been feeling lately.
i woke up and felt that today was gonna be a good day
even though there is nothing special going on today
so i decided to walk around campus in the morning
turned on my ipod~ played some instrumental songs
btw. listening to instrumental songs made me felt super elegant XD hahaha
and i took a walk to goodies market just to buy a bottle of water
but the walk was very refreshing
thinking back i think i have grown alot
i have been doing certain things that i would never do before
it is not even necessary for me to do but i still decided to do it
"why not make a person feel better" ?
if my little effort could make someone's day or make someone happier
sure why not? :)




smile more. laugh more. wave more. :D