more to life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing


I'm wanting more

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...

More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life
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what satisfy me?

there just seems to be missing something
why is this emptiness building up all of a sudden?


maybe its because i don't know where im heading
i don't know what i want to do in the future
so it seems like i'm going no where

but yet feels like theres more to that too
its a mixture of different emptiness


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oh wow its that time of the year again
radios are playing christmas musics already
i'm sad that the christmas spirit is not as strong anymore
i don't know for anyone else but for me and my friends
we'd be like "ah so lazy to get gifts so lets just do secret santa"
what happened to the old me?
i used to bring a huge bag of gifts to school
i bought so many things and gave it even to those that i don't know that well
but i thought they were the popular kids so i bought them gifts to let them like me ;) HAHHAHA
i still remember back in middle school when i first came to America
i didn't know anyone back then but this girl name Emily gave me a mini set of crayons and pens for Xmas
it was like the first time i felt welcomed in America
so that was that
i always remember little things :)
i guess as we grow up the things that satisfy us become pricier
sigh i wish i could still buy everyone nice things kus i love giving gifts
this year i shall but its just gonna be something little that i hope people would like :(
damn what's with this self consciousness lately
ughhhh bugs the crap outta me im so unsure of myself now
WHERE DID THE SUPER CONFIDENT SYLVIA GO???

woo

breakfast- bowl of protein & fiber cereal (honey almond flax flavor)
lunch- strawberry yogurt+2 cuties
afternoon snack-cashews

what shall i eat for dinner? :)

calm

everything feels so calm
is this a good thing?
calm with a tint of emptiness and distant
what is going on?


kind of scared

attitude

smiles are so amazing
it can make a person feel welcome right away
and it doesn't even take that much strength to do it
why can't everyone just make a little effort and make the world a happier and more loving place?

ms. fedex kinkos you just ruined my day
but mr. in n out you made it better :D

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just brainwash that particular part of my brain
i will feel so much better



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did i mention how much i love Dianne Kim? :D <3
HEHHEE

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winter break = lots of snowboarding!!!!
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ok off to run errands once again T_T

擁抱

知道有人愛你的感覺真好
知道永遠有人可以讓你擁抱的感覺真好
別人看到你跟你的special someone在一起想說"他們好可愛"的感覺真好

strict

so so so so so so so so so so so so so shocking
damn i can't believe freshman 15 is semi true



NO SODAS
NO SNACKING (..or at least major snacking :P)
WATER WATER WATER
NO FOOD AFTER 8
EAT EARLY DINNER (around 5)
EXERCISE EVERYDAYYYYYYYYYYYY


FRESHMAN NEGATIVE 15 HERE I GO

only if pt 2

only if fun never ends.







怎麼了?

only if.

only if life can be simpler
only if simple can satisfy my want


finally doing better with this
and now another comes



i wish you could look more on the bright side
but i know how it feels because i'm always like that too
but only if you could..
it could save a lot of tears



im sorry for being so careless and selfish
but i'm so tired...



really tired.







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thank you daddy

- -

self conscious..


thanks alot

will you stop bashing on me now?















no food 6 hours before i sleep

oh my

dude sylvia
suck it up
i hate it when you're like this


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Why I Love You-B2K

i loveee this song <3

why can't someone love me that much???


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oh god why am i so bad at concentrating
need to do so many things
but i just sit here and waste my time
procrastinate.

learn

這是遲早得面對的時刻
選擇成熟的處理
比想像中的還難
但是不管多痛苦還是要忍
在這個感恩節把哀愁全部趕走!!!!!!!

Suddenly i see

i was just looking back at the pictures i took ever since college started
i never thought i could have so much fun :)

i remembered the very first time at Ed's place
i had so much fun i cant even describe it ahhahah
things have been moving on pretty quickly

it seems like yesterday was the first day i met everyone

im so grateful of being able to hang out with these people



i don't know

everything just cleared up all of a sudden


so this is how i used to live life
i didn't even know how today passed by
but it sure went by quick
hahahhaa
finally got my scheduleee YESS :D
but waitlisted for japanese - -
hopefully i'll get in


i miss my family and my friends back in db
thanksgiving shall let us catch up :)
have an urge of taking millions of pictures!!!!





阿~好痛快喔 :D

有時候選擇留戀不放手

wanted to sing this song out loud all of a sudden
dunno why



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更了解你

GAHHHHHHHH

omg...just kill me now..
COME ON LET ME GET THAT JOB SO I CAN GET ALL THESEEE <3

New Perspective

today was a good day
everything felt so right : )



-rimac
-clics/geisel
-eat fruits
-water!



suggest listening to itouch/ipod during bike riding
feels AWESOME :D <3

TO JEFFPANN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF!!!!!
you're 21 now! ;)

wheeeeeeeee
:) hope you'll have a great one!

easy vs hard

i get sad too easily
i get cheered up too easily
i get jealous too easily
i get curious too easily
i get joyful too easily
i get interested too easily
i trust too easily
i smile too easily
i wonder too easily
i cry too easily
i forgive too easily




too hard to let go
too hard to focus
too hard to stay mad
too hard to forget
too hard to hold back
too hard to control
too hard to be selfish
too hard to find the right one
too hard to fall in love..

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is it even possible to fall in love?


because right now i am not convinced.




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wherever you are


steal my heart away
let me know how that feels

GAH

SO MUCH TO DO IN SO LITTLE TIMEE





anyways stupid art project - - how are we suppose to come up with an idea and finish the project in 3 days? really really bad planning there


and i still need to do lotsa reading for film history
neeed to study for japanese midterm
i actually finished like 2 chapters of reading yesterday for film history
wheeee :D


but im finally back to db and i want some time to hang out with my old friends
and not spend all my time on hw ughhh


i miss you guysssssss :(

:)

today's a pretty a good day : )

singing karaoke at home now
i miss singing <3




thank you JAESIK for taking me back :D !

to Christina :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE
i really hope i can make it back on saturday! :) i miss you so so so so so MUCH!

意義

看起來是很開心的
真的是開心的嗎?
每個人都有自己的煩惱
而每天都很努力的不去想這些事情
可是不去想不代表不在你的腦海裡阿?
那是否人們每天都是不開心的呢?
because it will always be somewhere hiding in the back of your thoughts
if it exists then again.. does it mean we're unhappy everyday?




what IS the most powerful emotion?

walk vs run

would you walk the whole way?
run the whole way?
walk first and then run?
run and then walk?
or switches back and forth through out the process?


oh hell i wish you would just run the whole way

hope

who doesn't want to be happy?
we all search for a source that can bring us happiness
sometimes when it's so close you even twisted the situation a little bit just so it could be perfect
even though in reality, the little gaps you closed up always add up to a huge hole that would be difficult to fill up
stop finding excuses for that other person and start treating yourself better
sometimes no matter how hard you try to fix it
it can never be fixed
it is just not meant to be

sunrise

ahh i think this is the first time i watched the sunrise :)
its sooo beautiful
i love the sky
its amazinggg <3

oh em gee

i want these soo badly..
i was gonna get it but stupid shipping cost 10 bucks wth?

title

so i just noticed the sub-title of my blog was " life goes on with endless stories to tell"
did i come up with that by myself?

i sound pretty intelligent there :) HAHAHHAHA
thats why i keep a diary
sometimes i just surprise myself

when?

how long does mr. monkey have to travel to get to the right place?

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just got back from my 8am vis art class
i feel like a completely new person today


not waiting for anything
plainly focusing on my own work as well as other people's artpieces

proud of myself
but at the same time the old question comes back again
"when?"

i hate hearing "its just not the right time yet"
but that is the truth i guess

i shall be more responsible and focus on my schoolwork and wait til my time comes
i actually "feel" like studying for some reason
this is so not me wth - -?
im probably gonna go to geisel to catch up with my film history reading
which im like 5 weeks behind? hahhaha

time to take responsibilities

i really hope i could get the job i applied for
let me be productive!

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no need to refresh today : )