joke

haha.
i guess the joke's on me

thinking of what will happen before even finding out if it's even possible or not



now i know it's not even possible.




bye.

澱粉

我:"澱粉真的是可怕的東西～太好吃了 可是又這麼肥“
媽：”你現在就在吃澱粉你知道嗎“
我：”我知道阿 所以我才說可怕阿“
媽：”澱粉會讓一個人很開心“
我：”甚麼？為什麼“
媽：”因為他的成份會讓你有滿足的感覺 心情會比較好“
我：”是喔“
媽：”對啊 你看看這世界上有幾個開心的瘦子“
我：”:OOOOO YOURE RIGHTTT" nomnomnommm

dead.

there's a lot I want to say to you
but i don't know how

there's a lot I want to show you
but i'm hesitant to do so

i want to feel this way
but things just kept on getting in my way

i just want to be happy and show my own happy personality
but i'm always dragged down and influenced by negative energies around me
why does it have to be like that?


我覺得我快崩潰了
i can't stop thinking about it.

blank space

There is this happiness i'm afraid to feel
There is this hope i'm afraid to rely on
and there is you i'm afraid to think about


i'm afraid to lose something that's never mine
-----------------------------------
lately i've been pretty calm i guess
on top of all that stress, i am living my life pretty placidly
nothing too dramatic
but at times i worry about this type of me
is this a feeling of mature or hopelessness?


i'm pretty darn tired
physically and mentally.

i need help.

please.
just help us this once
i really need it this time.
just please..i'll do anything..