接受

我們都接受 一定是彼此不夠成熟
在愛情裡分不了輕重
誠實得過了頭 不能退後也無法向前走
愛是一個自私的念頭 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感動 能記得多久


怎麼會這麼突然
我的feelings真的很莫名其妙

tears

是變堅強了嗎？
總覺得很幾沒哭了

有點不惜慣這樣的自己
這種時候我因該是會掉眼淚的
是想要掉眼淚
卻忍住了
這種陌生感 老實說
我有點怕

sorrow

for most of the time
what other people think affect me a lot
i act differently
i try to please people as much as i can
i try to make everyone feel as comfortable as possible
i want people to be friends
i want people to be able to find a sense of belonging like i felt with my friends


at times
i just don't care about what anybody thinks
i just want to go back home
and take care of my family
i don't understand why things just can't be "good" for more than a month
finally getting happier again with my sd life
and now there's this to worry about
to be honest
i'd rather have dramatic sd life if that's what it takes to not have to worry about my family

Falling in Love

I'm falling in love she said

To say that word feels like

I'm losing myself

Cause someone always has to give

Give in to get what should already be theirs

Its not like its a photograph

Something to frame and hang it up on the wall

Something that keeps taking on

More than it holds until its taken it all

Can love even in times uncertain

Be the thing that carries us through

Can love open a heart that's frozen

Even when there's nothing there for you.

Oh this is what it feels to be alive

Even though we stumble our way through

Oh, chance and then another one appears

Then again another comes to you.

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i don't really know how to feel about this
sad?
happy?
regret?

i think i basically just blanked out
nothing was really on my mind
but that emptiness
is pretty darn scary
hopefully my time comes soon

忍

i hope this is only temporary
忍一忍吧