War

i will definitely miss this.

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is it really

alls fair in love and war?

i hope it's that way

but it's too good to be true

there are always little scratches and loopholes

are you suppose to be selfish? or considerate?

at times i think i don't treat myself fairly

i put others before me way too often

and at the end i blame myself for being so weak and useless

always scared to stand up for myself

but even so

i am still getting the same response as if i stand up for myself

why bother then?

i don't get it

i just don't

flaws

go ahead and find all the ways to disappoint me

i should make more time for myself
rather than for you


i need to learn how to be more independent
at the end you will always be alone




attempt 2.
fail.

self

this has come to a point where i am starting to doubt myself

am i really not worthy enough?

is this the best i can do?

why am i doing this..

有時候

真的很想賞自己兩巴掌

Please

Please
at least one
let me learn
let me take a step further
just one...

Hello...Kiddi

as i stood in front of the display a smile came upon my face
"wooo yayy new arrivals" flashed through my head as my eyes wonder around
as i was about to reach forward and pick up this cute bag
"who the heck buys hello kitty stuff at the bookstore"
as i heard these words of the passing students
i swooshed my arm in a bowling action
and ran my fingers through my hair and picked up my footsteps once again
darn it.
i really wanted that bag
damn it.